Missing you!

Dear Ragil,

We had to carry some heavy stuff to the neighbor's house today

Dad couldn't do it ,nor could Mom but I managed to carry it to the car.
Hardly had we driven a few metres down the street when the car broke down.
Dad took over the wheel while Mom and I had to push the car back into the garage.

Beneath all  the huffing and puffing there was  a wish untold

My hands and feet still hurt and my heart even more

When I wished with all my heart that you were here to carry it for me.

You were always there when we needed you and gladly shared our burden

As mom often said ,I miss those strong 'Hands of Iron'
And that innocent heart of yours.

When Dad commented on my driving skills today,

"I imparted it from Ragil",I said,beaming with pride 

And wished you were here to see me drive!

The refrigerator,filled with delicious candies and cake
And all that you loved kindly beckons,

Unaware that there is none to gobble them all up.

I know I've screamed at you countless times for your untidy room

But now I miss cleaning that mess and putting your things away!
An eerie silence awaits me when I come home each day 

And Oh!how I miss your laughter and the music!

I miss the times we'd  spent singing together 

And I don't remember the last time I sang from deep within.

Your guitar lies broken and untouched in a corner 

And when asked about it by guests who visit often,

I proudly reply,'That's MY brother's!'
I know I've never told you this
But You've made us proud indeed!

It's been exactly a year,4 months and 7 days since you left us

And everyone thinks we've moved on.But how can we?

You were a part of us,of every fiber of our being

And we truly miss you..every moment of every single day!

I often see Mom weeping and Dad quietly shedding a tear 
While my silent cry is  locked up within. 

But deep down,I know you're up there watching and listening.

You are not forgotten loved one,nor will you ever be,

As we await the glorious reunion when we will meet thee!

Forever with Love,

Lynn