Saturday, 21 July 2012

Be Still...






That is a beautiful verse that was deeply impressed on my heart lately.For someone like me who likes things done my own way and who wants God to work exactly the way I want Him to, being still and allowing him to work things out is umm...a little tough.How am I supposed to be still when things don't seem to be going my way,or when life seems so unfair and I feel like throwing my fists at God?

Imagine Moses in front of the Red sea.With six hundred thousand people (and that's just the men!) trusting him to lead them to the promised land ,they were being pursued by an Egyptian army with no means of escape and to make matters worse,Moses had to put up with a lot of  ungrateful grumbling and complaining .Despite all this, I am amazed at Moses' faith when he said,"The Lord will fight for you;You need only to be still".A statement of unflinching faith born out of knowing the Ruler of all of nature on an intimate level.Moses could say that because he knew that God was God! And true enough,God did something so amazing that day-a jaw dropping,unfathomable miracle,absolutely phenomenal in all of history.He parted the Red sea so His people could walk through!

Be still and know that I am God.As God's children,this is one of the greatest assurances we have.When at crossroads,faced with an uncertain future,unsure as to whether to turn to the right or the left,can you believe that all we have to do is just shut up,step aside and let God lead us?That means giving Him the control of every single detail of  our lives-our desires,our ambitions,our future...and well,basically EVERYTHING!And guess what? He will lead us perfectly to what he has in store for us.And that calls for a  giant leap of faith!

So next time circumstances seem to swallow you up or when you have no idea of what is happening around you,STAND STILL-not because of a self made confidence,not because you are the most composed person in the face of disaster,not because 'you've seen it all'.Be still  because of what you know about God.And the result? The latter part of the verse says,'I will be exalted among the nations'.God will show up in unexpected ways and in unexpected places and all you have to do is just sit back and watch the show.Oh what a great God I serve!




Wednesday, 15 February 2012

Picture Perfect!



Yes.That's exactly  the way I like my house kept.Clothes all washed and folded,the bed neatly made and furniture exactly the way they ought to be.Unfortunately, the house is shared with others who don't think the way I do.We live in a fallen world,you see,Lol.My parents come home and shoes,socks and bags are tossed everywhere(my brother used to be an expert at this!),newspaper spread all over the living room just because my Dad doesn't finish reading it in one sitting,and the house turned into a mess(well..atleast by my standards).Then there's my cousin who comes home on weekends and by the time he leaves the house,it would seem like his room has been hit by a tornado.This is when I start my usual whining and complaining.'What's wrong with all of you Ma? Can't you put things back in their proper places?' to which I'd either get a calm reply 'We're too old .When I was your age I kept the house spotless too!' or a louder response-'Papaa!God doesn't care how you keep the house.It's only a clean heart that really matters'(Yeah,right!).My Dad would go on to say something like this-'What on earth are you here for?It's your job to keep the house clean'.Then,there's the classic reply-'You are too proud.You think too much of yourself.It's high time you change yourself and show us some respect'.The hopeless argument would go on till I return to the next round of cleaning minus the whining.So much for trying to keep the house in a perfect shape!

Perfection.Isn't that we all want?We want a perfect house,a perfect car, perfect friends with perfect character.But fact is no one's perfect and I'm not either.Definitely not and even as I'm writing, I've got these feelings of inadequacies battling within me. But you know what? I serve a perfect God who is quite keen on working on my imperfections because as His children,we are called to become like Him,aren't we?We are called to strive towards perfection of character,a course of action that requires perseverance and discipline.In the third chapter of Philippians Paul writes thus:


"Not that I have already attained this—that is, I have not already been perfected—but I strive to lay hold of that for which I also was laid hold of by Christ Jesus.Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself to have attained this. Instead I am single-minded: forgetting the things behind and reaching out for the things ahead, with this goal in mind, I strive toward the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."

Paul readily admits that he was far from perfection. He even referred to himself as the “chief of sinners” (1 Tim. 1:15). Notice, however, that Paul doesn't give up when he realized that he couldn't attain perfection in this life. He tells us that he was continuing to press forward and that he expected to make progress.God wants us to press forward towards perfection too.No,it's not easy and for God to work on our anger,ego,pride, arrogance and emotional imbalances it takes time.A lot of it in fact.But that also means spending more time with Him, inculcating His qualities in us.So let's allow Him to prune us,to mould us so that we become the kind of person He wants us to be.Let not the cliché 'No one's perfect' become an excuse for spiritual stagnancy.May God give us the grace to be found blameless when He returns!


PS:Before you start imagining my house as a pig sty,let me clarify.Its not that bad.Just that I'm a clean freak or rather used to be one:)






Monday, 2 January 2012

One Day’s Work (Ida S Scudder, 1901)


Today, one person does not have to function as  doctor, nurse, pharmacist, lab technologist and buggy driver.Rounds are no longer done in horse carts,and marvels like electricity,antibiotics  and surgery have become routine, but some aspects  of a busy life in medicine  do not change.

When Ida Scudder(an American medical missionary and the founder of India's largest mission hospital at Vellore) longed  for  one trained assistant,  could she have ever imagined where that quest would take her? This narrative , in  her  own words,  written in her first year as a  doctor, beautifully captures  her capacity for love, wonder and service.

          One Day’s Work  (Ida S Scudder, 1901)

‘I wish I had the power to give you all the touches of light and shade, and joy and sorrow of which a day is full, but must depend on your imagination to picture everything to yourself and I will ask you to go with me now through a  day’s work.

While it is still dark I am roused by the sound of wheels telling me that the day is at hand and I must be on the wing. Dressing in the dark,I am nearly ready when a knock tells me that my chota (coffee and toast) is ready and as I finish this and am ready to start, the first rays of morning are lighting the sky. My Indian assistant, Salome is always ready and waiting at the steps. The morning is resplendent with beauty, the western sky a beautiful pink and the east like molten gold. Feeling the new life which I need creep into my veins, I thank God for His wonderful handiwork.

By the time the beauty is falling we are well on our way to the town, a long hard drive when one is in a hurry. We meet picturesque groups of women laden with brass or earthen pots, little girls bending under loads far greater than they ought to bear. Cattle and sheep in great herds are being driven to the grazing lots. Crows by the hundreds flock around picking up their breakfasts.Now we reach our destination, a spacious house, but dark and gloomy, the only light coming in through a small opening in the roof which is covered with bands of iron. The rooms are dark where the women live, but the men have their apartments  upstairs where it is cooler and more airy.

My patient here is a sweet young girl, suffering for the past two years with an abscess between her shoulders, one of these slow processes coming from a tubercular spine. A crowd always follows me and watches, commenting or asking questions. A woman’s trouble must always be diagnosed from her left hand, a man’s from his right. If by mistake I feel a woman’s right hand and don’t ask for her lefthand, they think me exceedingly ignorant.

From this house we return part way on the bazaar street and turn into a narrower one , then into a mere alley. We have to leave the carriage and walk. Heads fill the doorways, for in some mysterious way they know that “ Doctorammal” is coming. Others draw their heads indoors. It is a Mohameddan house to which we are bound, and my patient is a young girl, the mother of two children. Such a nice family,so neat and clean and grateful!

Out to three other houses in a different part of town. Now we must hurry home, for the dispensary opens before eight. I give the reins into Salome’s hands and take this opportunity to read my medical journals. On reaching home, I first run out into my small hospital  room to see that all is well.

A crowd is waiting and I am soon in a whirl of a dispensary taking names, dispensing (or trying to) and then doing all the treatment with Salome’s  help. It is hard  work and I sorely need a trained assistant.

First comes a dear old lady whose finger I had to amputate. I almost took her hand off as the case was so desperate, but her son pleaded with me to give it one more try. I did and am so grateful. Then comes a baby with a frightful burn. A man now comes whom I am treating out of pity. He swallowed a thorn which was removed by a native doctor, but due to a stricture of the throat when he first came he could not  even swallow a drop of water and had not eaten for four days. Now he is able to swallow the white of an egg and a little milk. The only objection I have to his gratitude is that he insists on throwing himself at my feet and touching the toes of my shoes with his fingers which he then kisses. I have learned now to get out of his way.

Sore eyes, earache, skin diseases and fevers are always plenty, but  each day I have new and interesting cases. My one room is very crowded and it is often hard to be patient, I always have to repeat my directions as to how and when  to take the medicine, how much, and whether to take a special diet.Now comes a poor village woman with her only little child with a fearful incurable disease. She says that she has heard my name and people say I can cure her child, and then, placing the little one in another’s arms while she bows before me, calls me first her mother, then her “god”. Oh, it is so hard to tell her that nothing can be done!

Next comes a child totally blind, on account of having sore eyes neglected. Oh these poor, dependent helpless people. I do pity them so!The hardest thing I have to do is to tell them they have come too late.

Morning wears on and the breakfast bell rings, but I do not go. Someone comes to my door and says that breakfast is nearly over. “Won't Missy come?’ it is nearly one o’clock when I am ready to eat, and everybody  has left the table, but Miss Hancock comes and sits with me while I tell her about the patients. After eating I return to my office and make some tests and find that one girl has tuberculosis. I had hoped against hope, but the microscope reveals the fact, and I have to tell her husband, who is waiting , that she will not live very long.All he says is “Oh how can I let her die? We have four little children.” 

I go again to the hospital room where I have these patients. It is a pretty room, bright and airy. All the women say they have only come to this  room to get well for here the air is fresh and clean. After treating them I return to the house and rest a while.

Soon a call comes from the town and again I hurry into another quarter where the streets are narrow and I have a long distance to walk.I find a young girl dying of tuberculosis. A severe haemorrhage frightened her people into coming for me as a ‘last resort’. Someday they will understand and have confidence. Now I must pray for patience.

I reach home just in time for dinner, for this is Thanksgiving Day, and some friends have come in to help us celebrate. We talk of the dear homeland and wish that we might see our loved ones there. Do we give thanks? Oh yes! I especially thank God for leading me to India to work among these women I love and for whom I love to work.


Adapted from CMC Weekly news